To my friends working to grow your family but it’s proving harder than you thought, I see you. You’re not alone. I’m praying your time will come like I prayed ours would too. ⁣
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I remember feeling hopeless as we tried to get pregnant the second time. We had a short window to get our “timing right” before Ryan’s next deployment. We had 10 months or risk me delivering a baby without him.⁣
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I tried so hard to be in control during that season. We tracked, tested, tracked some more. I was so stressed. For months, nothing was happening. ⁣
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I felt bitter toward Ryan convinced he was to blame. I needed to blame someone but I also knew that was wrong. That season of “trying” taught me to let go of my “ideal plan.”⁣
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Austin came to us at the perfect time. ⁣
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Yes, it was the perfect time even though Ryan deployed 10 days after his birth. God knew I would be better off with a newborn and a 3 year old. He knew that age difference would help me even though I always wanted my kids 2 years apart. This was “ideal” for me on my own. I just didn’t realize it until now. ⁣
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𝘐𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘰𝘰𝘬 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬𝘧𝘶𝘭 𝘪𝘵 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯’𝘵 𝘨𝘰 𝘢𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘱𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘥?