I Didn’t Think I Was Cut Out For Motherhood
Honesty Time: I didn’t think I would make a good mom.
I am the last person to ask to hold a baby. I hate feeling sticky and I love beer. Baby songs creep me out. I never changed a diaper before my oldest was born.
But here is the thing that I had yet to learn - none of this disqualifies me from being a great mom.
During my first pregnancy, I believed I wasn’t cut out for it. I remember going through a mourning period for the identity I was leaving behind to become a mother.
Would friends without kids, still want to hang out with me?
Will all conversations revolve around kid stuff?
Will my husband find my post-baby body attractive?
Will I ever shower?
Will I still be me?
I believe becoming a mother has made me better.
Sure, I’m more forgetful, but it has allowed me to find out who my true friends are.
Sure, I skip showers, but that saves me money on my expensive hair products.
Sure, I jiggle more, but that has given me a new challenge to overcome.
Sure, I argue with a toddler on the regular, but that toddler makes me less selfish & more purpose driven.
Without Nolan & Austin, I wouldn’t know myself as well as I do & I wouldn’t know the immense love and strength I am capable of.
Photo Credit: Kerry Lee