Noëlle Boyer

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I Didn’t Think I Was Cut Out For Motherhood

Honesty Time: I didn’t think I would make a good mom. ⁣

⁣I am the last person to ask to hold a baby. I hate feeling sticky and I love beer. Baby songs creep me out. I never changed a diaper before my oldest was born. ⁣

⁣But here is the thing that I had yet to learn - none of this disqualifies me from being a great mom. ⁣

⁣During my first pregnancy, I believed I wasn’t cut out for it. I remember going through a mourning period for the identity I was leaving behind to become a mother. ⁣

⁣Would friends without kids, still want to hang out with me? ⁣

Will all conversations revolve around kid stuff? ⁣

Will my husband find my post-baby body attractive?

Will I ever shower? ⁣

⁣Will I still be me?⁣

⁣I believe becoming a mother has made me better. ⁣

⁣Sure, I’m more forgetful, but it has allowed me to find out who my true friends are. ⁣

⁣Sure, I skip showers, but that saves me money on my expensive hair products. ⁣

⁣Sure, I jiggle more, but that has given me a new challenge to overcome. ⁣

⁣Sure, I argue with a toddler on the regular, but that toddler makes me less selfish & more purpose driven. ⁣

⁣Without Nolan & Austin, I wouldn’t know myself as well as I do & I wouldn’t know the immense love and strength I am capable of.